Julie Jewels Smoot

Medical trauma does not necessarily end when someone leaves the examination room. Sometimes the consequences follow a person for years. For me, that experience contributed to a profound loss of trust in VA healthcare. I did not simply forget what happened.

And I am especially tired of people celebrating military service while becoming uncomfortable when veterans talk about military sexual trauma, chronic pain, medical neglect, and the lasting consequences of serving.

Moments when explanations cannot reach the places where fear, grief, exhaustion, and emotion have been carried for years. Moments when what we need is not another conversation, another solution, or another instruction about how to heal. Sometimes, what we need is to experience being held. Not restrained. Not controlled. Not touched without permission.

Someone may believe we should be ready to talk about an experience. Someone may encourage us to participate in an activity. Someone may suggest that we need to move beyond a particular fear.

It does not mean everything has healed. It does not mean painful memories have disappeared. It does not mean I will never experience grief, anger, fear, or discomfort again. It means I recognize my right to make decisions about my own life.

The space between sounds matters just as much as the sounds themselves. And over the years, I have come to understand that the same can be true in life. There are moments when we are creating.

A hand carefully pulls a wooden block labeled "CHOICE" from a stacked tower, symbolizing decision-making. There is something I have learned through my experiences as a United States Navy veteran, a survivor of sexual violence, an advocate, and a woman living with Complex PTSD. Having a choice matters. It matters when someone enters a room. It matters when someone approaches your body. It matters when someone asks you a personal question. It matters when someone invites you to

The pause after a gong. The quiet following a Tibetan singing bowl. The moment before a hand pan melody begins. The natural sounds that may be present in the recording environment. Those spaces create room for the sounds to be heard individually. They also influence the overall rhythm of the recording.

My body has carried me through every experience of my life. It has responded to stress, exhaustion, grief, fear, joy, movement, and rest. There have been times when I have felt connected to my body and times when that connection has been difficult. But I do not believe that reconnecting with ourselves requires us to override what our bodies are communicating.

I know what I have accomplished. I know the hours behind the writing. I know the vulnerability behind the music. I know the effort behind advocacy. I know the quiet discipline behind personal growth. I know the moments when choosing myself required more courage than anyone else could see.

Pause and reflect: What does your body truly need today? Explore options like movement, rest, or simply being, as you immerse yourself in this peaceful setting. Listen first—nothing is required. There are days when my body wants movement. There are days when it wants sound. There are days when it wants quiet. There are days when it wants to walk, stretch, breathe, move slowly, listen to a gong, receive bodywork, or simply curl up underneath a blanket and be left the hell alon

Tranquil healing space adorned with musical instruments and soft lighting, emphasizing silent recovery: "Your pain does not need an audience to be real. You are allowed to heal without explaining, proving, or performing." There is a difference between having pain and performing pain so that someone else will believe you. There is a difference between sharing because you want to and sharing because you feel you have to prove that what happened was bad enough. There is a differ

You don’t have to tell every detail of your story in order to heal. Healing can happen through sound, movement, breath, rest, silence, creativity, boundaries, and simply learning to listen to what your body needs. You can feel without explaining. You can heal without performing your pain. You can share what feels right and keep the rest for yourself. Your story belongs to you. Your body belongs to you. You decide who gets access.

There is a difference between trying to make the body heal and creating enough space for the body to begin listening to itself again. For many of us, especially those who have lived through prolonged stress, trauma, or PTSD, the instinct can be to do something. Fix it. Push through it.

A serene scene with gentle flowing water and wildflowers conveys a message of calm acceptance with the text "Nothing Is Required of You."

There is a quiet belief many of us carry without realizing it. "I'll begin when I'm calmer." "I'll meditate when my thoughts settle down." "I'll rest after I finish everything." "I'll take care of myself when I have more time." The list continues, always placing well-being somewhere in the future. Trauma-informed gong listening offers another possibility. What if you began exactly where you are? Not after your anxiety disappears. Not after your schedule becomes lighter. Not a

You do not need to quiet your mind. You do not need to breathe a certain way. You do not need to relax, let go, or have a profound experience. You simply need to arrive exactly as you are. That is the heart of trauma-informed gong listening.

The Chiron Gong creates space for listening to what still exists beneath survival. In astrology, Chiron is often associated with the “wounded healer.” But in trauma-informed sound work, I approach Chiron differently. I do not believe every wound needs to become wisdom immediately. I do not believe pain must become purpose in order to deserve care.

Sound alchemy is a beautiful art. It uses sound to heal, to balance, and to awaken. The sounds are not just noises. They are tools. Tools that help us connect with ourselves. Tools that help us find harmony in a busy world. When I first discovered this path, I felt a quiet calling. A whisper that said, "Come closer. Listen. Heal."

If you’re here, you may be curious about sound healing—but unsure if it’s for you. You may be living with trauma, grief, exhaustion, or a nervous system that doesn’t easily settle. You may have tried meditation, breathwork, or sound before and felt like it didn’t work—or didn’t feel safe. This space is different. There is no right way to be here. There is nothing you need to fix. You are welcome exactly as you are.