Julie Jewels Smoot

No amount of self-care can fully compensate for living in a place where my boundaries are routinely ignored. As someone living with Complex PTSD, trauma is not simply a memory of what happened years ago. Trauma also lives in my body. My nervous system is constantly evaluating whether the present moment is safe or unsafe. Every interaction either reinforces safety or reminds my body to stay on alert.

For many trauma survivors, conversations can become places where old wounds are activated. The body may anticipate judgment, rejection, criticism, or abandonment. Protective responses arise quickly, often before conscious awareness has the chance to catch up. This composition offers a gentle reminder that presence can be practiced. One breath at a time. One sentence at a time.

Shut Up and Listen to Survivors emerged from that frustration. Originally written as a poem, this piece was inspired by Julie Smoot's experience witnessing the disconnect between the voices of survivors and the institutions tasked with addressing military sexual trauma. The message is simple. If you want to understand what happens when military sexual trauma is reported, listen to the people who have lived it.

Trauma does not end when the event is over. It can continue through memories, flashbacks, self-doubt, shame, fear, hypervigilance, grief, and the long process of rebuilding trust. For many survivors, the deepest wounds are not only what happened, but the silence that follows. The disbelief. The victim blaming. The isolation. The pressure to move on before healing has had the chance to begin.