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What I Will No Longer Engage With
A woman sits contemplatively on a bed, symbolizing reflection and the decision to let go of unproductive engagements.
Julie Jewels Smoot
Jan 243 min read


What I Will No Longer Explain
A woman sits pensively, embodying the sentiment "What I Will No Longer Explain," conveying a sense of introspection and personal resolve. There was a time when I believed clarity required explanation. If I could just find the right words. If I could make my experience understandable enough. If I could stay calm, reasonable, articulate. Then maybe I would be met with respect. I no longer believe this. Explanation Is Not the Same as Being Heard I have explained myself carefully
Julie Jewels Smoot
Jan 242 min read


Rebuilding Without Urgency
A reflective moment emphasizing the importance of rest in the journey of rebuilding at a mindful pace.
Julie Jewels Smoot
Jan 243 min read


After the Exit: What the Body Needs Next
After prolonged exposure to harm, the nervous system remains on alert even when the threat is gone.
This is not failure.
This is momentum.
For a long time, the body learned that danger could return at any moment. It does not shut that learning off overnight. Safety must be experienced repeatedly before the system believes it.
Julie Jewels Smoot
Jan 243 min read


Distance Is a Form of Care
The body is always calculating cost.
How much energy does it take to be here?
How much vigilance is required to stay safe?
How long before pain appears? What happens afterward?
When the cost of proximity consistently outweighs its benefit, the body begins to pull away.
Julie Jewels Smoot
Jan 243 min read


When Coping Becomes Self-Betrayal
A woman sits with her head in her hands, embodying the struggle of confronting self-betrayal when coping strategies turn detrimental.
Julie Jewels Smoot
Jan 243 min read


When the Body Will Not Calm: Living With Ongoing Harm and Complex PTSD
I have been drinking Calm Magnesium. It is not touching the emotional pain.
That is because this is not a mineral deficiency.
This is not stress mismanagement.
This is not something that can be overridden by breathing harder or trying to be more resilient.
Magnesium can support a nervous system after safety returns.
It cannot convince the body it is safe while harm is still present.
Julie Jewels Smoot
Jan 243 min read
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